# I appear today as I did forty years and more ago

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- Published: 2017-05-31T07:52:41+00:00
- Author: Roman Xavier Hudson

I am a very old man; how old I do not know. Possibly I am a hundred, possibly more;
but I cannot tell because I have never aged as other men, nor do I remember any 
childhood. So far as I can recollect I have always been a man, a man of about thirty.
I appear today as I did forty years and more ago, and yet I feel that I cannot go
on living forever; that some day I shall die the real death from which there is 
no resurrection. I do not know why I should fear death, I who have died twice and
am still alive; but yet I have the same horror of it as you who have never died,
and it is because of this terror of death, I believe, that I am so convinced of 
my mortality.

And because of this conviction I have determined to write down the story of the 
interesting periods of my life and of my death. I cannot explain the phenomena; 
I can only set down here in the words of an ordinary soldier of fortune a chronicle
of the strange events that befell me during the ten years that my dead body lay 
undiscovered in an Arizona cave. I have never told this story, nor shall mortal 
man see this manuscript until after I have passed over for eternity. I know that
the average human mind will not believe what it cannot grasp.